Grateful

I didn't think I would be this happy living in Freeport. Except for the commute, I am happier than I have been in a very long time(if ever). Even missing Rachel as much as I do, I'm still happy. How can I be so happy with a broken heart? The Cowboy is so good to me. I enjoy his company. I trust him. He doesn't have to say he loves me, he shows he loves me which is far more important to me. He means what he says and does what he means and says. It's beautiful. Any young girls out there reading this? if you listen to nothing else an elder tells you listen to two things:
First my Grandmother told me some priceless advice I didn't follow:
DO NOT marry a man if you think you need to or even can change him.
Second my advice is:
Make sure when you commit to a man that his actions match his words. And better yet, his actions are true to his words.
I feel so blessed this day. I never ever thought I would be this in love with a good man. I am secure and warm and loved. WOW! Cowboy's daughter is a love. I am crazy about her too. She and I can but heads but we are bonding too. I just have to remember she's young and not always treated well when away from us. I love being a part of her and her Dad's life. It's like a privilege to watch such a great father/daughter relationship. Sometimes I get sad that Rach didn't get to have that but she is really doing well and building one with him now. Better late then never I guess.
I CAN NOT believe she has been gone from me for a month today!! I got to see her and Samira yesterday(thank goodness for SKYPE) so it feels a little better. I really wanna hug her so much. My lap aches for her to snuggle with me. I know! I know she's all grown up but she still fits on my lap. She's my baby!!! I am so dang proud of her. She is doing wicked great. I didn't really know if she would...well I knew she would I just didn't think so well so fast. She's a brilliant beautiful girl and she has only just begun to shine!

LOOK OUT WORLD YOU ARE ABOUT TO BE ROCKED BY RACHEL!

I don't want you to feel bad for me but I have to go to an ocean side lobster bake with my new family!! I know! I know it's a tough life considering I love lobster and this new family!!! :0) (sarcasm rox)
So I'm happy, getting healthy, going to school and loving the Cowboy and his little girl. And I live in So Free ME.
Life is NOT crap.
:0)